Guest Post: Confessions of a Workaholic

"What is joy without sorrow? What is success without failure? What is a win without a loss? What is health without illness? You have to experience each if you are to appreciate the other. there is always going to be suffering. It’s how you look at your suffering, how you deal with it, that will define you." ~ Mark Twain

Guest Post: ”Alena Savostikova,” Actress and Model


I spent the last couple of years trying to control every aspect of my life and eventually I ended up unhappy, feeling alone and turned into a control freak.

I wouldn't go to bed until I responded to all my work emails, submitted myself on jobs and double/triple checked what time are my castings the next day, what's the addresses and etc.

I wanted to be successful so bad, that I felt that I needed to do everything at once. I wouldn't trust others to help me with anything.

As hard as I pushed myself, I expected other to deliver as well and it would be incredibly disappointing when people didn't live up to the expectations. I became completely consumed with work and incredibly miserable.

The one thing that mattered to me, work, didn't give me any satisfaction anymore. Yea, being a control freak paid off, I was working constantly... but that's where my life summed up.

Within a short period of time, I distanced myself from all my friends. Never went out. Had no hobbies and it was all pretty depressing.

A month ago I realized I didn't want to live my life like that anymore. That I wanted to be happy, even if it meant sacrificing certain jobs.

I gave myself time to read the books that I never had time to read before. I signed up for classes kickboxing, cooking, comedy night...

”I made time for my friends...”

Ironically enough, when I stopped pushing so hard for things to happen, they just started happening for me. Clients started calling me, vs me hunting them down. I started booking acting jobs that I never even thought I would get called in for. Campaigns, commercials.. All within one month of acknowledging my downfalls and focusing on the good in life. It's incredible how life works. Once you let go of something, all the opportunities come flying in. You have to open yourself up to the world. You have to be happy now, without the things that you want so badly and trust the universe.

I am a living example of that. You can be whoever you want to be in life, but wants important is that you are happy. It's never too late too change your life.


Alena Savostikova is a Russian born model. She established her career within the high pressures of the european market, later exploring Asia in the interests of furthering her knowledge and becoming a more diverse leader of the industry.

Currently resides in Los Angeles, California, Alena is pursuing an acting career.She recently worked on the highly coveted television shows "Mindy Kaling Project", "Mixology" and also played one of the leading roles in "Mummy Resurrected" which is expected to be released later this year.

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